Birthday in San Jose

It's my birthday today. I was born 37 years ago. I wish my Mom is alive so that we can chat baby stories and see how different I was from Brigitta. The only thing I remembered her saying was that she wakes up in the middle of the night to see if I was okay and was startled to see me staring back at her in the dark. I was a quiet baby, she said. Well, Brigitta is the total opposite then. :) She was crying so loudly yesterday that Kevin closed the window coz he was worried about the neighbours. She cried till about midnight. I had to prepare for a shipment for Whoosh2 so had asked him to take care of her. I think she had gas. One thing I learnt is that it's best to take care of a fussy baby when you're not tired. Just being on my own doing the packaging for a couple of hours really refreshed me so I was ready in taking her. Kevin was totally exhausted of course.

Last year, I wasn't even pregnant, and now, I have a beautiful and loud baby girl. Life is amazing. I had waited till I feel that I'm emotionally and financially ready to have a child and I am happy that I did. I had experienced being single as an adult and learning about myself, then had great years learning on being a couple and now I'm learning how to be a parent. My Mom always told me that I'm a late bloomer, and boy, am I late. My younger sister has three kids and she's giving me advice! ha ha. Some of my friends have kids who are already going to be teenagers, my older friends have kids my age..ha ha!

As for career, well, it's definitely not the corporate ladder nor the business empire that I had imagined as a kid. Some of my friends are high up in ladders and empires, and I am really happy for them and proud that they're up there. My dreams have changed a bit, it has molded to include my and Kevin's values. We want to be financially independent (who doesn't) but with a business that can help others. This year is our year to plan for the future. It has an extra weight of responsiblity coz we are automatically planning for Brigitta's future too. No more hippie lifestyle (no, we didn't have one but it's a cool thought).

Do you remember when you're a kid and you wished you hurry up to grow old? Me too, I thought I was an old soul and my body is catching up. This is probably the first birthday that I want to stop my internal body clock. I want to be this age (hmm...maybe 35) forever. Why can't we be like tortoises and live up to 300 with a couple of hundred looking and feeling like we're in our twenties. It took me a long time to wise up God so pretty please?

Japan managed to have over 19,000 people reaching their 100th birthday. Is it those morning exercises they keep doing? Or maybe the whale meat which they shouldn't be eating coz whales are going extinct? Hmm...

Okay, since I don't know when my time will be up (Man..this is a depressing birthday blog ain't it?), I want to concentrate on good things like food. We are planning to go back to Malaysia in May so I'm starting a list in my head of all the food and fruits I want to makan "eat" when I'm there. Brigitta is going to have some interesting breastmilk, hopefully her tummy will be more mature by then.

Till then..happy birthday for those who are born on March 18th. And a happy, happy Unbirthday to all!